HaHa on TwitLonger : The question if the focus of my life is matched is my biggest worry these day

ha dong hoon (@Quanninomarley)

Posted Friday 1st June 2012 from Twitbird Pro

“My biggest concern lately has been about what to focus my life on….”

I know what it is…i definitely know what it is but…
I clearly know what i’m lacking but..
I think i still want to enjoy myself here for a bit longer….
Like an idiot…i’m know what it is but…

I’ve been heartbroken a lot….i’ve also fallen over a lot, so i know how to fall over and get back up but….
On the outside the kid we call Haha is a bright and childish playboy (?) hehe. You may not know since it’s an image but Once when this kid went into his room and closed the door, he became the world’s most depressed kid…(I got back up again thanks to my Mother’s prayers!^^” Mr Yong Dress!!(Reference to how his mother wears what is called a Yong Dress))

However! There is a lot of things that i have not shown to you…If was to think positively, then on the contrary i consider that to be a good thing! Because i still have stuff to show you.
Me along with everyone who thinks that i’m talentless because i’m not able to show anything to you right now! Don’t we all continue to live our life due to our potential? 
It’s a good thing! Because my abilities haven’t been completely exhausted yet…lets show them! Since i have spent more time on TV making people laugh rather than being on stage as a singer! (But i’m blaming variety shows, the place that allowed me to rise again is variety shows! I’m really thankful for it! I’m close with Yoo Jae Suk! ^^)

The albums and singing performances that i’ve yet to show to everyone, i need to show these a lot of times to everyone. There was a certain situation but i won’t blame this situation! Since it’s my fault~ All the problems start with me~ Everyone! Everyone that is perhaps planning to give up half way because you are so full of frustration! Lets show them! It would be a waste not to! It’s a crime not to when we can.

Also

The people that always have grabbed a hold of me even when i fell over..
Even though as a Christian, i’m a lewd guy that smokes, swears and drinks alcohol a lot, i would also like to give this glory to the person that is at my core (Even though i still smoke…T.T Sorry God….)
He is the person that even made a single ant useful…surely he would have a use for me Ha Dong Hoon! I need to change…This is not how you end up being really impressive…if i want to be change to become really impressive then i need to be a celebrity that has a lot of influence and continue my dedicated intercession prayers.
Since i need to become really popular, please cheer for me a lot and really really support my albums as well (I’m extremely thick skinned ^.~)
Even Yoo Jae Suk has acknowledged that i’m a impressive guy! So that i can now became an impressive guy acknowledged by that person as well, it may not be fast but i will continue to work hard! I will now focus my life on that person!

Thank you!
I’m suddenly thankful…for being born in Korea and for being extremely lucky and being more loved then what i’m worth….

For Blessing me….Now it’s your team! I will give you everything so you can be blessed!

I won’t die!! Fighting!!

I…i…i….love…love…y….
i’m just interested in you!!
From the impressive guy…

Yeah Man(?)!!!! Father~!!!!!

And then, TEO PD replies

Teo PD : Did you really write this yourself??

Haha : Wh….Why….??

TEO PD : No…No…i’m just amazed you could write such a long post…since you usually just speak in exclamations…

Haha : ME!!!!! WHY!!!! WHAT!!! WHAT!!! AH.!!!!!!
TEO PD : hehe yeah…exclamations….
Haha : Funny!!!! Hehehehe

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thank you @lordbordem (ddd fansclub) for your translate…